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A spot fire smolders near a lumber yard on Sept. 10, 2020 in Molalla, Oregon. Multiple wildfires grew by hundreds of thousands of acres Thursday, prompting large-scale evacuations throughout the state.  Nathan Howard/Getty Images
A spot fire smolders near a lumber yard on Sept. 10, 2020 in Molalla, Oregon. Multiple wildfires grew by hundreds of thousands of acres Thursday, prompting large-scale evacuations throughout the state.  (Nathan Howard/Getty Images)

‘How Could This Happen Twice?’: Camp Fire Survivors Who Moved Away Relive Wildfire Trauma

‘How Could This Happen Twice?’: Camp Fire Survivors Who Moved Away Relive Wildfire Trauma

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When Corinne and Bruce McCourt woke up to the news that there was a fire burning near their home in Stayton, Oregon, they didn't need any further warning.

"When we saw live ash coming down on the roof ... we just said, 'That's it, I can't do this. I'm not going to wait till the last minute and leave,' " said Corinne.

The skies in Stayton, Oregon on Sept 8 at 8:30 a.m. 'What you can't see is all the ash falling on our house and neighborhood,' said Corinne McCourt. (Courtesy of Corinne McCourt)

That's because the last time the McCourts saw the skies look like this — dark red and orange, with ash sprinkling down — it was November 2018, when the deadly and destructive Camp Fire raged through Paradise, Magalia and Concow, completely destroying their home.

"It's like ... how could this happen twice?" she asked.

As wildfires rage across the West, families who left Butte County after the devastating Camp Fire and made new homes in Oregon are now experiencing traumatic wildfires they thought they'd left behind.

And wildfire experts say large wildfires will likely play a bigger part of life on the West Coast from now on.

It Wasn't Supposed to Burn

After the Camp Fire destroyed their home in 2018, the McCourts spent three months staying with friends while they sorted out their plans. Both had previously lived in Oregon's Willamette Valley in the 1970s and decided to find a new home there.

In part because Oregon, usually, gets a lot of rain.

"We knew it rained a lot," Corinne said. "And I wanted to come up here because I just figured it would be so safe."

But after a hot summer and a weekend that saw hot, dry weather up and down the West Coast, fires began to spring up everywhere — including in Oregon. The closest to the McCourt's is the Beachie Creek Fire, which has now burned more than 180,000 acres east of Salem.

On Labor Day evening, the sky started to look too familiar.

"The winds picked up. And smoke was everywhere, and it was very eerily reminiscent of the morning of the Camp Fire. Exactly the ... same weather experience and the smoke," Bruce said. "And Corinne and I just looked at each other and said, 'This can't be happening now.' "

After a warning from their neighbor, the couple began packing to flee a wildfire, again.

But Corinne found herself frozen. They'd lost everything in the Camp Fire and had spent years replacing furniture and buying new dishes. Now, she was faced with the prospect of losing it all again.

"I just couldn't move," she said. "I mean, you know, I just kept looking at this and thinking: What do I do?"

'Irrational Things Happen Sometimes'

While public health researchers are still trying to understand the health impacts from the Camp Fire, according to trauma and mental health experts, feelings of stress and anxiety are normal for survivors of traumatic events, like natural disasters. And big events, like wildfires, can reopen old wounds and cause people to relive difficult and frightening experiences.

Jesse and Laurel Merz recently moved to Oregon this past June. Initially, after their house was destroyed in Paradise, they were able to find a new place in Chico, but ended up moving to Oregon anyway.

At first they considered Southern Oregon, but said there was "too much fire there" and settled on Eugene, about two hours south of Portland.

Then the Holiday Farm Fire started. And even though it was nearly an hour away from their house, Laurel started getting nervous.

"As soon as they said that there was a red flag warning ... the hair on the back of my arm started to raise," she said.

Laurel said that even though she rationally knew that the Holiday Farm Fire was dozens of miles away, it was hard to stop thinking about. She knew the fire would have to jump two rivers and a huge freeway to threaten their new home. So it should be safe.

But she'd also felt that way about the Camp Fire, before it burned down her home and destroyed the hospital she worked in.

"My irrational brain has been correct before. Because irrational things happen sometimes," she said.

Mental health experts, like psychologist Daniela Domínguez, say it's important to pay attention to feelings of anxiety and hypervigilance, because they may be signs of a trauma-related reaction to what's happening.

"It's really important for us to pay attention to those signs," Domínguez said. Because if we don't attend to those feelings with "attention, love, care and community" it could get worse, and lead to health concerns.

And it's important to note that not everyone experiences these traumatic events equally. For instance, those who identify as Black, Indigenous or people of color may have experienced traumatic events that "have made a deep impact on the way they're moving through spaces," on top of concerns about wildfires, Domínguez said.

In addressing those feelings, Domínguez said it's important to remember the following:

  • Validate your experience: It's important to acknowledge your feelings, Domínguez said, so you can help yourself — and others — work through it.
  • Make sure you're in a supportive environment: "Well-being depends on whether relationships and the environment in which we are moving are healthy or supportive or responsive," she said.
  • Normalize your stressWhile in the midst of a difficult event, you may be tempted to discount your own feelings. But Domínguez said, considering the state of the world, it's normal to be stressed out and anxious.
  • Take the time you need: Think of trauma as a psychological injury, Domínguez said. So if you need to take some time to take care of yourself, you should.
  • Talk to a professional: If you've gotten to the point where you're experiencing a level of stress that is impacting your help, Domínguez said it may be time to speak to a mental health professional. Here's where you can find affordable, culturally competent therapy in the Bay Area.

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A Future of Wildfires

With another wildfire threatening their new home in Oregon, the McCourts said they were feeling like fire was following them.

"Here's what I've been telling people," Bruce said with a laugh, "if you wanted to find somewhere safe to live, watch where I moved to and don't move there."

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But as difficult as it may be to think about, the West Coast could see even more fire in its future.

"We're going to see fires in these places where we maybe didn't have them in recent history," said Crystal Kolden, assistant professor of fire science at UC Merced. "We're going to see them more frequently and more explosively."

On Monday, President Trump visited California and again asserted that poor forest management, not climate change, is the cause of widespread wildfires across the West Coast. Kolden acknowledges that forest management is part of the equation, but emphasizes that it doesn’t exist in a vacuum.

"Climate change is ... it's the umbrella and it's the amplifier," she said.

While in the moment these widespread fires can feel overwhelming and impossible to deal with on an individual basis, Kolden said there are things we can do to prepare once the fires subside — like getting together with your community to make evacuation plans and creating more defensible space around your neighborhood.

She also recommends getting involved in the National Fire Protection Association's Firewise program, which encourages communities to get together with wildfire stakeholders — like your local fire department, elected officials and emergency managers — to create a wildfire risk assessment and mitigation plan for your neighborhood.

Another way to advocate? Vote.

"People always have to make choices about what the most important issue is to them. But guess what? If it's fire, then your vote needs to be for someone who is going to address climate change," Kolden said.

Corinne and Bruce McCourt during a trip to Washington, D.C. (Courtesy of Corinne McCourt)

The Wildfire Experts

After leaving their home, the McCourts went to stay at a hotel in Salem. They said that while the fires in Oregon have brought up the stress and anxiety that they felt when the Camp Fire was still burning in 2018, their previous fire experience has also given them valuable perspective.

As Corinne McCourt saw fire evacuees filing into the Holiday Inn, some looking visibly distraught and crying, she felt compelled to tell them it’ll be OK.

"I just wanted to reach out to them and tell them: You know what? It doesn't look like it, but it really is going to be OK. If you make it with your life, then that's the most important part," Corinne said.

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